Even Better

Sarah's comment about my crazy month really made me stop and think. I DID have an insanely busy month. Working at Mother's Day Out has really thrown us for a curve ball when it comes to keeping everything else done around here. On top of that was my crazy-busy 10-days working the childrens consignment sale...nuts! When you add being full-time mommy to my kids, and wife to Nathaniel, along with church committees, praise team rehearsals, volunteering in Natalie's class at school, and the day-to-day job of running a home...well, I would say that makes for a crazy month. Through it all I have not reached for Dr Pepper (my usual comfort food!) - NOT ONE TIME - nor have I reached for sugary sweets (only natural sugars like fruit for me!). That in itself is a victory...friends, you have no idea the addiction I had to Dr Pepper! The one time I accidentally sipped from Nathaniel's cup instead of mine, I nearly gagged...it was his DP and it was so sweet I couldn't stand it. The Lord has delivered me from this addiction, because I truly believe that it is a miracle for me to have NO DESIRE for that special carbonated beverage. Victory indeed! Goodbye five pounds, hello to roomier jeans (can you believe it?), and the step towards feeling better about myself!

30 days

In the last 30 days I have lost five pounds. I am glad. My doctor noticed and said I should celebrate the victory. He is wise. Goodbye five, I will NEVER see you again. And for today, I will continue following the plan...and hopefully, in another 30 days, five more pounds (or more!) will be gone forever. Yes...I will celebrate the victory.

Still...

Still fat.

Still frustrated.

Still mad.

Still wanting change.

Still determined.

Still hoping.

Still trying.

I made it!

I made it to the gym this week. Not as many times as I had hoped, but I made it nonetheless!

I am super sore...and it is exciting! :)

Back At It

I can't wait for school to start! Natalie will be starting Kindergarten, and Levi will be my big boy in the two's class at Mother's Day Out. They are ready, which makes it easy to say I am ready :)

I am ready for many reasons...but one of them relates directly to this little blog. The first day of school will also be my first day back on a routine. This summer, with our move, I have fallen off of the wagon so-to-speak, not to mention that I cannot afford to pay for childcare for both of them 3-5 times a week! YIKES!! I haven't made it to the gym like I had hoped, but I have not lost hope!

I am jumping back on the wagon, and I will find a new normal...a new routine for myself. I will be watching even more closely the things I put into my body, and I will be back to checking the calendar for opportunities to work out at the gym. So here's to school starting, and here's to a new routine, and a new chance to learn to love me even more!

Thanks Alot

Today I was in a local business making a purchase for Natalie. As I was checking out, the lady behind the counter says to me,

"Is this for the new baby on the way?"

What?!? New Baby on the way?!?!?

Though I wanted to shout "I AM NOT PREGNANT!!", I refrained and simply replied, "This is for Miss Natalie for her room!"

Being fat is hard...

I'm a loser, and I don't mean the good kind

I wish I could say I was a loser, and mean that I was losing weight. Who knows, I might be, but I am seriously doubting it. I haven't been on the scales for some time, and honestly, I haven't made it to the gym in a couple of weeks.

We have some BIG stuff going on around our house, and I haven't made the gym a priority. Once the 'stuff' clears out a little, I fully intend to make it back to the gym! Really, I mean it!

For now, I ma trying not to lose any ground I had already covered, and I am trying to make smart choices about food. Folks, that isn't easy with big stuff brewing, but I am trying and that counts for something.

So basically, all of this makes me a loser: one who hasn't posted in some time because there is nothing worth posting!

Sorry! hopefully soon I can be back to my motivated self! Until then, just pray for me, will ya?